Saturday, January 21, 2012

Life of leaving home

Hey guys, i'm back for 8 days from NS for the CNY break. Actually i came back yesterday but was dead tired and about to fall sick. Anyways, a lot of people asked me how NS was so here's how it was in summary.

IT SUCKS DIPSHIT.....for the first few weeks.

It all honesty i cried on the fifth day of NS when i got back my phone to call back home. I was homesick, i didn't have much friends because of the language barrier. This of course made me talk less and subsequently people in the Delta company started calling me proud.

Food was disastrous, flies everywhere, the chicken was always half raw and the fish was hard enough to hit someone with it. Vegetables and fruits weren't fresh and the water had a very bad taste and smell that made me gag the first few days i drank it.

Living quarters and facilities is only good enough to let you rest and do whatever you need. My bed was ok but when i changed the pillow case for my pillow, much to my disgust my pillow was almost black with dirt. As for the toilet we only have 6 shower rooms and 6 toilets which only three of the toilets can be locked properly.

The people were friendly though some had some real attitude but nothing too bad. (If you're reading this lisa, there's no cute girls in my dorm. The cute ones stay in other dorms.)

Trainers, they were nice at first then their true colours came out. The male trainers were perverted as heck and the female trainers some were nice, some were ridiculously strict and illogical. Here's an example, Charlie's company female trainer threaten to take away Charlie chinese girls protective amulet (like the mini Buddhist statue or the Christian cross) as she believed that it was 'challenging the ghost residing in the camp'. You can of course imagine the ruckass the girls made. I was pissed off as well, as i brought an amulet myself. But thankfully she didn't took them away.

Onwards to our everyday schedule.

4.00 am - Malays wake up for prayers but they wake us up too.

6:20 - 7:30 am - morning assembly followed by physical training

7:30 - 8:30 am - breakfast and prepare for Character Building class.

9:00 - 10:30 am - Character Building class.

10:30 - 11:00 am - Tea break.

11:00 am - 12:30 pm - Character Building class.

12:30 - 2:30 pm - lunch followed by prayers for the muslim and rest time for the non.

2:30 - 4:30 pm - Physical training

4:30 - 5:00 pm - tea break

5:00 - 6:00 pm - Riadah (this changes often, sometimes we play games sometimes we listen to boring lectures and sometimes we do nothing, just sit in the hall and talk)

6:30 - 7:00 pm - dinner followed by prayers for the muslim.

7:00 - 9:00 pm - the best time of the day, non muslims do absolutely nothing but just hang out in the dorm.

9:00 - 10:30 pm - We call this Simpanan because anything can happen in this time slot. On wednesday and thursdays we have religious classes though.

10:30 - 11:00 pm - supper but most of us just head straight back to dorm to get sleep.

11:30 pm - lights must be off. For those on night duty they start patrol.

And that is how everyday goes, you might think "Hey it looks pretty busy." but trust me sometimes physical training at 2:30 is replace by grouping at the hall and doing nothing.

I'm still trying to be positive about it considering that the trainers keep saying that the activities will really start after CNY like kayaking and so on.

NS is really like life in a kampung, far away from civilization, no news of what's going on in the outside world and just seeing the same faces everyday. Considering my camp is near a secondary forest and an oil palm estate i've seen enough bugs to make me go pale. Like one morning when i headed to the toilet to freshen up i saw a spider the size of my palm with legs as long as my fingers. I think even ridsect can't kill that monster, man.

And basically NS is a place where we PLAY military. It isn't real military, we're just playing. The trainers don't really know what they should be doing and most of the girls drafted for it aren't strong enough to take the mild pretentious military training. Like when Bravo, Charlie and Delta got punished to stand under the sun at 2:30 for half an hour for being a minute late, some girls fainted and some cried because they couldn't take it. So i seriously urged that if they really do want to go on with it for the sake of doing something that other countries are doing, at least make it 2 years and draft only the guys.

And that basically says most of what i want to say about NS. Please do note that this is personally MY experience on NS. I realize that different people will experience NS differently depending on their personal perception on it so i hope you do respect how i feel about it. Anyway here's some pictures of my camp.


Marching field, the place we get punished, do our physical training and to gather for morning assembly.


The hall and canteen.



The really dark and quiet road (at night) leading to the girls dorm. In the background is the tower for abseiling and flying fox activity.


Alpha 1 Girl's dorm.


Road leading to Alpha 1 and 2 and Delta 1 and 2 girls dorm. My dorm is right at the end next to the obstacle course.


And this is how my dorm looks like everyday from 6 in the morning till 5. After 5 the dorm looks like some clothes warehouse sale.


And this is my bed and my unorganized locker. I have a surprisingly and unusually large amount of space beside my bed. No idea why so i decide to move my bed so that it wasn't directly under the window. It's scary to sleep facing the window at night.




Monday, January 2, 2012

Leaving home.

Hey, it's been a while. :)

So here's a post before i leave for national service tomorrow. I'm well....gonna write everything i feel about it, so it might be tad lengthy.

For starters i feel scared. Scared of the idea that i'll be on my own (i'm seriously starting to doubt my survival skills and independence), scared of the things i'll face and of course, i fear for my safety.

The next is MAYBE...just maybe excitement. It's a new place, a change of environment and experiences that are new to me. I  believe that i'll (and hopefully i will) learn a thing or two there and that's what i'm excited about.

Embarrassing but i do admit in all honesty, that i've been rejecting the idea of NS from the day i found out i was chosen until now (though far less than the day i found out, that day was a bad memory...). And again i admit that i've been an effed up brat to whine to whoever who will listen and get depressed over it so often. My rejection to NS is due to several reasonings such as my security not being 100% guaranteed, the people i'll be interacting with and the way NS is handled (terrible and horrible).

But even before NS even start, there were several valuable things to learn from this. It was tough but i'm glad i realized. Anger management (though there's still a pretty decent way to go), facing things, dealing with it and accepting it (quote from Gil in Midnight In Paris "the present is unsatisfying because life is unsatisfying, that's just the way it is.") so yeah, i believed NS will be another opportunity to change for the better (hopefully....).

I've been through weird stages as i accept the fact i am going to NS. First it was total rejection, followed by partial rejection with worry, fear and skepticism in the mix, then it turn to excitement and paranoia at the same time. -.-

And i'm FRIGGIN' FRIGGIN scared my phone will get stolen.

So anyway here's to hoping i come back safe and sound to share my national service experience.

Until then, guys. :)




Saturday, December 10, 2011

Hey guys, i know i've not been really consistent with my blogposts lately, i've nothing interesting in mind to blog about unless one finds my daily adventures in Gameland fairly amusing and interesting by which i feel it is pointless and lifeless to blog about it.

So my older brother got married today at Thean Hou Temple. It was as simple as a wedding ceremony can get. We got there, took some pictures, witness the couple sign the marriage agreement, watch them say "i do." put the ring on each other's ring finger, more pictures then headed back. Well usually most chinese family will have a wedding dinner later that night but my older brother still wasn't sure if he wanted to hold one (it isn't necessary to hold one and the couple can also hold the dinner anytime they like) as for now, the dinner is planned for next year november IF he wants to.

The one thing that kind of ruin my mood there...well actually two things. One is that when it comes to family matters i tend to get serious LIKE really serious and the thing is people ALMOST ALWAYS think that i'm in a bad mood when actually i am in a good mood but just being serious. The second was, all my relatives on my dad's side were criticizing me on the way i dress. Look i wear what i want and i have a good mind to know WHAT to wear and WHEN to wear it. i don't go up to others and say "EH why aren't you wearing blah instead of blah? It's your brother's wedding you should wear better.". I can't say i was underdressed, I mean you don't spot me wearing slippers, you don't spot me wearing shorts and you don't spot me wearing t-shirt or a singlet on that day. I was wearing A LONG PANTS, SHOES AND LONG SLEEVE BUTTON DOWN SHIRT. So seriously, were you expecting me to dress up like i'm the freaking bride herself?

To make matters worst actually, i was being respectful of my elders by allowing them to enter or walk ahead of me first but some decide to take it as gesture of rudeness, "Oh esther is raining on her brother's parade." and in several cases "esther is being shy.". I'm starting to wonder if "misunderstood" is my middle name instead.

That concludes basically everything that happ- Oh wait, i forgot, the light bulb in the room exploded this afternoon and the gas from the light bulb was escaped. It was REALLY poisonous and smelly. At first i thought it only contained argon then i realize that THERE WAS MERCURY VAPOUR inside. I was actually freaking out because both my brother and i were smelling that since yesterday even my brother was giving that Oh-damn-we-were-breathing-that-stuff-yesterday scared look.

Well so far there's nothing happening to me, so as much as i would like to check myself into the hospital, i shall ASSUME i'm ok. Fingers crossed.




Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Registered for driving lessons yesterday and bought me ze new shoes. =D

Registered with my neighbour, seriously wonder what she has been doing all year. she didn't get selected for NS and she wasn't even working part time before she started college. But oh wells, at least i'm not alone. I badly wanted to sign up for motorbike license too but meh, my mother was against it and we're pretty tight this month so i figure i'll go get it myself someday. I WILL DEFINITELY OWN AND DRIVE A SUPERBIKE >=)

Monday, December 5, 2011

Today was suppose to be a good day but i guess not. I don't find myself taking sides often but i do at times. This has been going on for far too long and what is annoying is that you're constantly throwing accusations after accusations. Dissing is fine, something i can tolerate but when you start convincing all your brand new friends that a certain someone is a backstabbing b*tch when i can vouch that this person had never once backstabbed you, that's the last straw. Was it all for some support or attention? I'm not sure.

You weren't who i thought you were, in fact i'm surprised that the person you claimed to have backstabbed you was the one that let go. You didn't, instead you choose to accelerate the situation into something far worst by continuously exaggerating it to your brand new friends.

I'm sorry i'm not convinced with any of your claims, i'm taking the neutral side. I sincerely hope you can realize that and stop bothering ALL of us with your claims, accusations and lies. I've seen enough bullshit to last me till next year and i want to spend my holidays drama-less before i go for NS.

Good day and good night.

Sunday, December 4, 2011

THAT NIKE SNEAKERS SHALL BE MINE MUAHAHAHAHAH!  *buyers remorse moment after purchase* OTL

Oh and have i ever told you how much i love Yellowcard? This....the reason why i love them. When i'm at my weakest, just watching this video is good enough for me to stay strong. =)


Friday, December 2, 2011

Movie date with Lisa today as she put it that way. It was the most WTF outing i ever had but i admit it was pretty darn fun. Watch Tintin and i SWEAR it's WAY better than Yogi Bear. Then headed to Empire since Parade was pretty darn boring which thus started the whole 3 hour clay figurine painting. I couldn't believe that i was doing stuffs like this either. But it WAS fun and a very good place to hang out and bond with friends. Just sit there, paint and talk. Doesn't cost that much either though some people may not find it fun at all. But seriously you should give that a try.

And that's pretty much my day, gonna go stop this post now to play Yakuza. Till the next post. See ya later, guys. :)